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Finally, Mazzei was ready. She turned on her camera. And just lượt thích that, Umãng cầu the camgirl was born.
“Having hundreds of people watching you is really hot,” Mazzei, now 28, tells The Post of her two years stripping down in front of her website camera. “It definitely is a turn-on for me.”
Inher upcoming memoir, “Camgirl” (Rare Bird Books, out Nov. 12), the UC Berkeley graduate unveils the highs and lows from her lucrative stint in sex work. The tell-all book arrives on the heels of her screenplay for the 2018 Netflix horror film “Cam,” starring Madeline Brewer (Janine in Hulu’s “The Handmaid’s Tale”).
Before her time in front of the lens, Mazzei had a complicated relationship with her self-esteem & sexuality. Although the California native sầu was raised in a comfortable, upper-middle class household, things weren’t as idyllic as they seemed. In her book, Mazzei claims that her father, who directed music videos, was bipolar, & that her mother, a makeup artist, was an alcoholic.
Although she declines to lớn discuss the details, Mazzei also says she was sexually abused when she was younger và suffered from trauma as a result.
In high school and college, she became a “slut,” in her words. Mazzei remembers making out with groups of both girls và boys at parties for attention, & feeling dirty and ashamed after sex.
After graduating from college, where she studied comparative sầu literature, she became “addicted” to Tinder. As she swiped obsessively, she tried out a string of conventional jobs, including web development, retail & even a stint as an assistant high-school teacher. All of them bored her.
The idea for camming hit Mazzei in 2014, during a trip to lớn a strip joint with a boyfrikết thúc. She was transfixed by a dancer who was “comfortable in her sexuality and practically ‘owned’ the club.”
Mazzei was envious — và inspired. After all, she was young and attractive sầu, with a form size 2 body toàn thân and 32B breasts. She wasn’t sure about nhảy đầm onstage, but, like most millennials, she had some digital expertise. So she hatched a plan to broadcast live sầu sex videos from her bedroom.
After a little retìm kiếm, Mazzei found a platsize called My Free Cams, where viewers could watch “for free” and tip “when they wanted.” She studied other camgirls to lớn get a sense of how they acted và what people liked. She came up with the persona of Umãng cầu — a slightly goofy, nerdy character who wasn’t afraid lớn bare it all.
“It was a combination of a fantasy of who I wanted to be, plus the results of my research as khổng lồ which cam girls were the most popular,” she says. The pseudonym Una came from its singularity, & just like her real name was unusual and made up of three letters.
Even with a few technical glitches, Mazzei’s premiere was a soaring success. Visitors were intoxicated by her offbeat humor và, of course, the strategic close-ups. She earned $450 that first night.
‘I’m proud of my sex work. It’s something I celebrate.’
“Here they were, hundreds of eyeballs glued to my every move. I was Queen Seductress, & I had found my people,” she writes of that first performance.
In one show, she sat in a foam-filled bathtub wearing a đồ lót và sailor hat, as her online visitors paid money khổng lồ piông xã which scrap of fabric should be discarded first.
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She found that she got a kiông xã out of manipulating & controlling the mostly male audience who communicated with her via texted chatlines. And the money was good, too: Viewers would tip $125 a time for sexy actions, like taking off her bra or spanking herself with a paddle. So she kept going.
Soon, Mazzei had some regular visitors lớn her chat. One, who she calls the “Whale,” often tipped big to make other users jealous. She offered private shows for those willing to lớn pay a premium. “They were mostly great guys,” she says.
They certainly were generous. As Umãng cầu, Mazzei raked in as much as $15,500 per month and some six figures a year. She drove two BMWs, rented a luxury apartment in a trendy part of Boulder, Colorabởi, and had a manicurist on-điện thoại tư vấn.
To keep business booming, she diversified her act to lớn include girl-on-girl shows & BDSM — a highly lucrative sầu area, she says. She even made an in-person appearance at a porn convention in Las Vegas, where she signed autographs for adoring fans.
It wasn’t all about the money & fame. Mazzei says sex work boosted her self-esteem — và, on a deeper level, helped her reframe her complex relationship with her sexuality. She discovered how she could control others with her sensuality and body. Camming, along with therapy, helped her giảm giá with her past trauma from sexual abuse.
“I finally felt lượt thích I was safe enough to lớn confront this thing that had happened to me và begin the process
Of course, her unusual career had its disadvantages. She had to lớn keep her work a secret from her family, và it took a toll on her toàn thân. The most lucrative time for camming was during the night, so she kept weird hours, sleeping most days until 6 p.m. This meant she neglected her real-life friendships because of their opposite schedules — và leaned more heavily on the attention of her online followers. Not all of them were kind, either: A handful of trolls called her “fat,” & one illegally posted her camming videos to a porn site.
Those pressures added up. By winter năm 2016, Mazzei was getting tired of Una.
“I started to feel lượt thích I had lost control over my digital identity,” she says. “I wanted to lớn regain the feeling of agency over my own image.”
So the cam girl made a brutal decision: Kill her off.
But Umãng cầu didn’t die quietly. Instead, Mazzei planned the character’s drunken suicide before a rapt audience of regulars.
“Once
Now, resurrected as Isa Mazzei và currently working in film — in a different way — in Vancouver, Canadomain authority, the single woman says she finally feels “real” again.
She doesn’t regret her years in front of the camera.
“I’m proud of my sex work,” she says, matter-of-factly. “It’s something I celebrate.”
